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I wish I wasn't different

Sometimes I wish I was born a different person. Someone normal. Without autism or ADHD. Normal. Why? Because no matter how many times your football coach told you being normal sucks, it's better than being abnormal. Being abnormal makes life harder than it already is by a Longshot. Using myself as an example. I had a hell of a childhood. I'll be the first one to say it could've been worse, but alot of the bad parts really stick with me and still hurt me to this day. Constantly marginalized and mocked and laughed at by everyone around you. Imagine a school life where it was rare for anyone to be even remotely nice to you. When they were, it was out of pity rather than actual kindness. Imagine growing up through that and life getting harder in different ways. Being unable to read body language, understand jokes or sarcasm. Hard time with empathy.  Hard time understanding emotion in general. Both yours and others'. Inability to read social situations and act accordingly. I

Laziness

It's been a while yet again since I last kept up with this. Mostly I've just been lazy. The title of this post. Laziness. As is common with me, I find myself wondering who I want to be. I'm a musician now. I play in a band called Gigas and it's alot of fun. That's where I've been focusing alot of my effort, and it's been therapeutic for me much like how this blog was. But it's wrought me a ton of questions. Like whether I want to pursue music as a career. It's something I've pretty much always wanted to do. Ever since I was little. But you know. It's not something to be relied on. So my fall back is law school. Yeah that's right, me a lawyer. It's pretty nuts to think about. But is it what I really want? I find myself dating this girl. And I like her, I really do. But part of me wonders whether I should be with her. Whether I'm at my best at my worst. Weird as that may sound, I often feel it's true. That I'm most miserable

Nice guy complex

I was talking to some of my buddies about this subject. I was talking about how alot of the guys who are generally called nice guys are vultures, but a fair amount of them are just socially inept. I too was like that once upon a time. As any reader of this blog well knows, I had problems in elementary school. I had friends before I transferred, but when I got to the new school, it wasn't fun. I was treated like garbage the entire time I was there. Which felt like an eternity to a kid being marginalized. Especially with girls, I developed a cynical attribute about me. I became quite disenchanted by girls. I thought they were all essentially selfish fake people that cared of nothing other than social status. Granted, that's essentially what I thought of all people. That said, it caused me to develop into what you could call a nice guy. I had all of the ideas they do. Girls only date the guy with the status, and it doesn't matter how much of an asshole he is. Stuff like that.

Intelligence and critical thinking

This is sort of an extension of my last post, where I talk about intelligence and logic. Here I will talk about in more specifics what I think true intelligence is. I said intelligence is more about your potential to be smart about various subjects. You are born with this set in stone. You can't improve your potential. That said, I believe intelligence is more than just your potential, it's your aptitude to fulfill it. Just because you have the potential to be a scientist doesn't mean you have the mental aptitude required to be one. You can improve your aptitude to meet your potential as a person. There are various things at work here. Passion, talent, knowledge, motivation, etc. The more aptitude you have, the more intelligent you are. Thus if intelligence is aptitude and potential, we can say that your overall intelligence is: your aptitude/your potential. The bigger the resulting number, the more intelligent you are as a person. Of course, it's not possible for you

The logical idiot

Logic is a rather interesting thing. I'd say most people are not logical beings. Most people are driven by emotion and bias. I think it's possible to be incredibly intelligent, yet not very logical. And vice versa. Though it seems like an oxymoron to say the illogical genuis, I'd say it's a very possible thing. That's because, you can be smart in any number of things. You can be a smart mechanic, or a smart trucker. Nobody is smart about everything. Intelligence is different in that it's more about your potential to be smart about various things. Not very intelligent people may cap out at being smart about trucking. Extremely intelligent people are potentially limitless in what they can do, but more notably, not in what they will do. See, as I said, it's impossible that you can be truly smart about everything. That is true even for the most intelligent. They must specialize. Logic is one of those specialties. It's true that most intelligent people are lo

Racism is NOT power+prejudice, it's just prejudice

Let us approach this topic with just a modecom  of logical thought. Racism has almost always been defined as the belief that one's race is superior to another race. It goes without saying that racists are far more prone to oppressing, and it can be said racism and oppression of other races(than whatever race x racist happens to be) will go hand in hand. There is little logical reason to oppress a group of people you consider to be equal with you. That's why demonization of enemies has always been a thing, but that's not really the point. This definition has been fine for decades. Let's start the analysis of the power+prejudice definition of racism now. First aspect of the new definition is power. What exactly is meant by power? Well, as this is a definition adopted only by this movement, we can only look at what they say. They seem to believe that power refers to institutional power. Like governmental positions and the like. The problem I have with this is that it can

Incels are equal parts interesting and sad

I was watching a video made by TL;DR. Who makes amazing evidence driven videos on youtube. He decided to talk about the issue of social isolation and how that affects incels. He made some interesting points that got me thinking. I would definitely recommend the video if you have some interest in the subject yourself. Personally, I find incels to be rather pitiable, but interesting nonetheless. Incels are entirely unique to the modern era. Sure, there may have been incels throughout history; however, they were not very vocal about that. We now live in the era where you can be extremely vocal no matter who you are. So maybe these people have always existed, but we are now finding out about them. Either way, it is definitely an interesting study in social interactions between humans. For those that do not know, an incel is an involuntary celibate. Meaning they want to have a romantic partner, but cannot find one. I won't repeat the points made in the TL;DR video. If you want to watch